Here's something I don't understand about why people just can't appreciate? Sad isn't it? I mean, you try to be there for almost everyone. And you try your best to just make them feel better. And all you ever wanted was to at least be appreciated for all the efforts and time you put in for them. But the sad part is, they just appreciated you for a while. When they find someone better than you, a better friend, they just leave. Just like that. Slowly pushing you away. It's like you never existed. As you have no feelings. At all. How could people do that? And when your in pain, in trouble, in need of someone to hold you, just so you could cry, nobody seems to be there. It's like they could sense your pain from the beginning and made emergency plans to avoid you so they don't have to listen to your problems. And when you actually got to tell the your problems, they actually get sick of it and start to think that you're actually annoying and leave you alone. broken. You're now on your own. And you're now realize that when you were busy trying to be there and help others to solve their life problems, you forget to help yourself solve your own.


29th December 2012. 2 days more and its whole new year. How time flies so fast huh? Sometimes its feels like 1st January just like a few weeks back. Too much happened this year. TOO MUCH. Gotta admit that this is the toughest year I've ever been through, so far. Now that I look back at all the things I've been through this year. For sudden, I just fell proud of myself. Yes, I'm proud of myself for making it through. Proud of myself for dealing with problems without having cutting myself or something stupid. I'm proud of myself, you know?

This year, life changes so much. Thing change, people change, I change. But I just that just life. Stranger become my best friends and my best friends become strange. Weird? Not really. But then again, everything change for a reason. So do me, I'm trying to be so much better person.

The main reason I'm posting this is to apologies. To everyone. To my close friends, my friends, people who I've gotten into a fight with, people who have offended with me in any way. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all my words that hurt your feeling, I'm sorry for my immature. I'm sorry for being rude. Sorry if I've change too much until you didn't recognize me. I'm sorry for screwing things up. I'm sorry.

Next year I'll turning into 13. So that mean I'll move to another school, wish me luck. I'll of course miss Sk1sas so much. I'll miss all my friend there. Wish me luck to friend new friend there. And maybe best friends? Hehehehehehe. Wishing to get a very great friends and not just a backstabber and two-faced friend.

2012, even through I hate you as much as I hate myself, but I'm thankful. I'm so much stronger than I'm before. I've the greatest friend around me and I have the most awesome parents on earth. Things may have change, yes. But I know that it's the best. I'm happy.

People keep wishing for 2013 be nice. Be awesome and so whatever. 2013 will be nice if you did't start creating drama, being two-faced and etc. 2013 will be awesome if you treat yourself well. x

My goals for 2013 is just smile more, eat healthier, make a lot of friends, learns to love myself, make at least one person's day, become outgoing, and last BE HAPPY (:

2013, let's be friend!